Light's gone, day's end, Struggling to pay rent

Hi guys! I know what you must think, why the hell is she posting so late at night? Well, that's because it's the only spare time I've had today. But I just wanted to let everything out, cause there is so many small things that bothers me right now, firstly, everybody seems to be sooo pissed at me all the time, I kid you not, Caroline almost hit me in the face yesterday, and tbh, I'm getting quite pissed myself, cause why the hell do I let these people walk all over me? I have no clue, and it's not because I'm a pushover if anything I'm the quite opposite of a pushover. And now I'm not sure if I'm just imagining it, but every time I try and tell people how I feel, and if I have any problems I wanna share with a friend to hear her opinion about it, or simply because I just need someone to comfort me and to tell me that everything will be just fine,it just seems like they really don't give a flyin' rats ass about it, but as soon as they're the one having some personal troubles they come to me as if they were moth, and I, a big and bright light bulb. Half the time, I'm extremely happy that I'll be leaving for the US in only a year, because, then I don't have to take this crap anymore, and the other half I'm dreading it, and I have absolutely no clue as to why, cause it's gonna be such an amazing experience. Haha, I'm such a rambling mess :) I promise I'll get my act together by tomorrow, don't worry, then you won't have to read about all of this rambling ;)

Until next time!

-Freja xx

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And i find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad

Hi guys! How have you been?
It's feels like I haven't written in forever, and tbh, I kinda need it.
I'm not sure what it is, but I've just felt really down lately. Almost every night I've went to bed, bawling my eyes out, and the worst part of it? I don't why! I guess I just found comfort in being able to just let all of my problems out with the tears and the sobs, even if just for a second. I don't know why my brain comes up with all these problems, cause things are actually running quite smoothly. It's frustrating to just go around with all of this coped up inside of you, cause I don't really feel I want to trouble my friends with these stupid problems, when a lot of them are dealing with their own problems, such as stress, "divorce" and lots and lots of other stuff, and compared to that, I guess I just don't find my problems as important. I mean, I was always known as the adviser in the group, and I still am, you know, the one you come to if you've had problems and you want to hear someones opinion about, or if you just need a friend who will agree with you or just comfort you until you throw up, and I guess when you get such an important role, in such a small group, it just becomes second nature to ignore your own problems. But I just feel like I need someone to discuss this with, someone who won't start complaining about how bad things are at home, what I REALLY need, is a friend who will just listen. Now don't misunderstand, I love all of my friends, and a lot of them are great listeners, but I just feel like my problems would be nothing compared to their problems, and I'd feel like a selfish bitch whinning about something so small and pathetic compared to the things they have to endure everyday.
It's was nice getting all of this of off me chest.

Until next time!

-Freja 

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