It's feels like I haven't written in forever, and tbh, I kinda need it.
I'm not sure what it is, but I've just felt really down lately. Almost every night I've went to bed, bawling my eyes out, and the worst part of it? I don't why! I guess I just found comfort in being able to just let all of my problems out with the tears and the sobs, even if just for a second. I don't know why my brain comes up with all these problems, cause things are actually running quite smoothly. It's frustrating to just go around with all of this coped up inside of you, cause I don't really feel I want to trouble my friends with these stupid problems, when a lot of them are dealing with their own problems, such as stress, "divorce" and lots and lots of other stuff, and compared to that, I guess I just don't find my problems as important. I mean, I was always known as the adviser in the group, and I still am, you know, the one you come to if you've had problems and you want to hear someones opinion about, or if you just need a friend who will agree with you or just comfort you until you throw up, and I guess when you get such an important role, in such a small group, it just becomes second nature to ignore your own problems. But I just feel like I need someone to discuss this with, someone who won't start complaining about how bad things are at home, what I REALLY need, is a friend who will just listen. Now don't misunderstand, I love all of my friends, and a lot of them are great listeners, but I just feel like my problems would be nothing compared to their problems, and I'd feel like a selfish bitch whinning about something so small and pathetic compared to the things they have to endure everyday.
It's was nice getting all of this of off me chest.
Until next time!
-Freja
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